{"id":1457,"date":"2015-03-01T13:41:37","date_gmt":"2015-03-01T18:41:37","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/vg-ford.com\/?p=1457"},"modified":"2015-03-01T13:44:32","modified_gmt":"2015-03-01T18:44:32","slug":"personalwritingdepression-its-been-a-long-winter","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/vg-ford.com\/?p=1457","title":{"rendered":"(personal\/writing\/depression) It’s been a long winter."},"content":{"rendered":"

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I know, it’s still a long way until spring, but seriously, I feel like I’m trapped in George RR Martin’s Game of Thrones world. \u00a0Between the depression and the SAD and the god-awful snow (seriously, there’s been like 60 inches of snow in the past month!), I feel like I’m smothered in cotton. \u00a0So what have I done?<\/p>\n

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Retreated.<\/p>\n

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I have totally been sleeping when I haven’t been at work, and eating all the foods that aren’t good for me (darn it, gluten! \u00a0Why are you in all my comfort foods?) and not writing. \u00a0Well, not really writing. \u00a0I did get some words in February, but I didn’t finish Secrets, and I haven’t finished the first draft of Deep Waters, both of which I wanted to do. \u00a0I haven’t lost any weight. \u00a0I didn’t make it to the gym.<\/p>\n

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But that’s in the past. \u00a0And I can’t change the past.<\/p>\n

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What I can do is focus on the future. \u00a0The days are getting longer (finally), and spring is coming. \u00a0I now have trackers that work for my sneakers, and I have my FitBit, which lets me see how I’m doing. \u00a0I have a new desk at work, and dammit, I have a birthday coming up. \u00a0I don’t want to be unhealthy any more.<\/p>\n

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I know it’s hard. \u00a0I know I’ll backslide sometimes (movie theatre popcorn, you are my kryptonite!), but going forward, I’m going to keep myself accountable here on the blog, on Twitter (I’m @vg_ford there), and on Facebook. \u00a0I’ve got modest goals for March:<\/p>\n

1. 250 words a day<\/p>\n

Not just on the blog, but on actual stories. \u00a0I need to keep writing every day.<\/p>\n

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2. 8 hours of sleep<\/p>\n

Seriously. \u00a0I’m sleeping more, so that on the weekends I don’t spend until noon in bed. \u00a0And I’m going to try and stick to my weekday sleep schedule on the weekends, so I don’t screw everything up. \u00a0End result: if you see me online after 11 pm and I’m not out somewhere, tell me to go to bed!<\/p>\n

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3. 6 lbs gone<\/p>\n

That’s the physical goal. \u00a06 lbs will bring me under 300 lbs, and that’s my first goal. \u00a0I can do this. \u00a0No more soda, no more gluten, no more crap. \u00a0It’s going to be interesting, as my gut is not happy with raw veggies and fruits right now, but I’m going to try some smoothies, and more steamed\/cooked veggies. \u00a0And real food, not processed food. \u00a0And water. \u00a0And tea. \u00a0(Glorious tea)<\/p>\n

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So there’s that. \u00a0I’m off now, to get my 250 words (at least), and then over to Mom and Dad’s for a roast lamb dinner. \u00a0I’ll see you all tomorrow!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I know, it’s still a long way until spring, but seriously, I feel like I’m trapped in George RR Martin’s Game of Thrones world. \u00a0Between the depression and the SAD and the god-awful snow (seriously, there’s been like 60 inches of snow in the past month!), I feel like I’m smothered in cotton. \u00a0So what …<\/p>\n

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